I can’t believe it is Jan 5 2009! I feel like I was ringing in 2008 just yesterday. Not to mention that I am sitting here watching my almost 2 year old son playing games, singing the alphabet and speaking to me in REAL words! He will be two on Saturday and I am beside myself with unbelief. I am a mom.
It took a while for my husband G and I to have kids. We were challenged in getting pregnant to start with, and then we miscarried three in a six year period. When we found out we were pregnant with Buddy, I didn’t even try to bond with the life forming inside me. At the time I wouldn’t have said that. But hindsight is 20/20, right? My girlfriend told me that the difference between my third and fourth pregnancy were obvious to her. She could tell I was excited, planning and preparing for my third one. When it came to pregnancy number four, she said I was distant, not enjoying the pregnancy and just plain uninterested. Could you blame me? The odds were against me carrying Buddy to full term.
Needless to say, that set me up for severe post-partum depression once my son had arrived. 2007 was a horrible year for me and Buddy. The bonding wasn’t really there at all. There were times when I would hand him off like a football to G with absolutely no desire to be a part of his life. I have to say, 2008 was a full 180 turn for me! I can’t get over how much fun I have with Buddy. We have some great times together, inside and outside the house. Don’t get me wrong, we have our moments ... and I need my girlfriend time each week to remain sane. But overall, I have such a desire and excitement about being his mom. Who knows, maybe I’ll even have another one. Yikes! Never thought I would say that!
On another note, you must take a moment and read my father’s blog post today. He truly has a way with words and today’s is no different. It reminded me of the legacy that I have because of my parents. Not many people can say what dad said in his post today, never mind after 60 years! Yikes ... another scary thought. Anyway, if you have time, I think you will enjoy the read today! (Mind you, every post is enjoyable to read when Daddy writes it! *grin*)
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